Author: Kaje Harper
Rating: 4 stars
Type: Novel in a Series
Received from Publisher
Blurb: Brian can Find a lost child or a wanted criminal, but when his secret gets out, even Nick’s skills and connections may not be enough to keep them safe.
Brian Kerr is now free of his dangerous boss and his domineering brother. He’s eager to start using his psychic Finding talent to help people, if he can figure out how to do that safely. His dyslexia, and his tendency to act simpleminded under stress, make building his new life a daunting challenge. And while his not-quite-boyfriend, Nick, is willing to support him, in bed and out of it, Brian doesn’t want to lean on Nick. If their relationship is going anywhere, he has to be a full partner and handle his own problems.
Nick Rugo’s walking a tightrope instead of settling into the ordinary cop’s life he’d hoped for. He’s hiding too many things from too many people. He has told professional and unprofessional lies that will come back to haunt him. Now, with Brian determined to start Finding again, he’s not sure he can protect the man he cares for. If all that wasn’t enough to make him start punching walls, he also has a suspicion that Brian’s brother Damon and sister Lori may be out there, lurking, ready to complicate their lives.
Review: When left to his own devices Brian Kerr does not make the best life choices. His sort of boyfriend, Nick Rugo, lets Brian make those choices. Brian’s bad choices coupled with Nick’s bad choices come back to bite them. Nick’s worst fears are realized. He can’t protect Brian from the people who want to use him, nor can he protect Brian from himself. Brian realizes he can actually be there for Nick. Brian can be someone that comforts and offers support. Their world is far from perfect, but they have each other. While Nick is at the gym Brian agrees to a Find before he’s fully recovered from his last Find. Things don’t go well. Things really and truly do not go well, and Brian winds up in Florida. Things don’t magically become better for Brian in Florida. Nick has no idea where Brian is or how to help him. Things get really complicated when Brian’s brother Damon calls Nick for help.
Wow, so these guys have made some mistakes and the ramifications are not pretty. Things don’t go well for cops that maybe sort of let the bad guy get away. Nick has to deal with the reality of his life. He’s ruined the only job he ever wanted. He’s also not good at this whole relationship thing. Being a cop was the only thing Nick ever allowed himself to want. Now he wants Brian, and that’s profoundly scary for Nick. Nick has just reinforced for himself you lose the things you want. There is some self-fulfilling prophecy going on here.
Brian just wants to be a grown up! He wants to not only feel adult but have other people view him as an adult. This is a double edged sword. Brian doesn’t know how to properly express his frustration at situations he feels are unfair or are holding him back. You can’t have a temper tantrum because people don’t view you as an adult and expect to be viewed as an adult. Brian is making strides toward living a life solely as Brian and not hiding behind Bry until he has to deal with his family. When things are hard it feels really good to fall back into your comfort zone. Brian’s comfort zone is Bry, and Damon and Lori take care of Bry.
A lot of Nick and Brian’s problems are cleared up. Personally, I felt they were cleared up a little quickly, but it was plausible enough so I’m going with it. Even though a lot of problems are cleared up, there are still problems waiting to erupt. Brian still owes law enforcement a Find. I feel strongly it’s going to be Damon. There’s also a whole lot of stuff that went down on a boat that a lot of people are going to want some answers about. What I’m curious about is whether we’re going to get these answers from Nick and Brian’s perspective, or Damon’s. Damon, the bad guy who is dedicated to his family. The bad guy I am unable to write off as bad. Damon is deeply complex in ways that are compelling and endearing. I can see how Damon can be someone’s hero.
I feel this book was a strong follow up to Tracefinder: Contact. Brian’s guilt in regards to his family needed to be here. Nick’s reluctance to further the sexual contact between himself and Brian needed to be here. These guys didn’t easily get over their issues as soon as things settled down. It doesn’t help things that Brian and his family have no job skills. They’re still susceptible to a guy like Vern Marston trying to control them. Everyone has come far, but the Kerr family still has a ways to go.