Author: Caitlin Ricci
Publisher: Dreamspinner Press
Rating: 2.5 stars
Received from Publisher
Blurb: Before jumping into his first semester of college, Thomas Maloney decides to lose his virginity at a party to a stranger he’s sure he’ll never see again. Only the next day, he’s surprised to learn the same one-night stand will be sharing his dorm room. Thomas considers himself lucky, but his new roommate—not so much.
Closeted as they come, football jock Remington “Rem” Daniels is on track for a shot at the pros. Rem tries to play it cool and avoid falling for the confidently gay Thomas, which could hurt his chances. Dealing with their constant need to get in bed together wouldn’t be so hard if Rem didn’t have a girlfriend and Thomas didn’t have a conscience.
When she delivers news that will change Rem’s life forever, Thomas knows it’s time to move back home to Thornwood, Colorado. But neither the distance nor knowing Rem belongs to someone else helps Thomas get over him. Rem’s feelings haven’t changed either. When it comes down to love or football, Rem will have to make the hardest choice of his life and hope Thomas will still be waiting for him when he does.
Review: I’m just going to say from the beginning that cheating is something I do not like to read about. Some books it’s there and I don’t like it but most characters can be redeemed IMO. There’s a sense of wrongness a person acknowledges so we can move forward. In this book the cheating was an ongoing reality Rem seemed fine with. Rem is bi and has a girlfriend but also can’t stop sleeping with the other MC and college roommate, Thomas. Thomas isn’t the first guy he’s cheated on his long time girlfriend with. His entire attitude about it seems carefree. Like it’s this thing he just has to do but can’t break up with his girlfriend because she loves him. He also has plans to get drafted in the NFL after graduation and a girlfriend fits the image he needs. Rem does care about his girlfriend but knows he doesn’t love her.
Thomas and Rem’s situation starts out as uncontrollable lust. Soon Thomas falls in love with Rem and decides it’s better to share Rem than not have him at all. Not that the girlfriend knows she’s sharing mind you. To be fair Thomas does struggle with his conscious thank goodness. Doesn’t stop him from giving into his lust over and over. Rem will sleep with Thomas and then an hour later his girlfriend shows up and they make out in front of Thomas or do more. Rem is honest about his situation but he also sees nothing wrong with hurting him over and over. I STRONGLY disliked Rem if you can’t tell. His behavior was cruel. His sweet moments never warmed me over because sure enough the next page he’d be hurting someone again.
The writing was pretty good. As for the romance it just wasn’t for me. It takes place over about 6 years. I guess you could make a case that Thomas was so in love with Rem he held out for him all those years but the journey wasn’t at all enjoyable for me. Rem was too oblivious to the people in his life’s feelings and selfish to care what a mess he was. I honestly wanted to yell at Thomas to tell Rem to kiss off. That he wasn’t worth it. For me Thomas gave him way too many passes. Thomas is crazy in love with Rem but I never really understood why. I was never able to connect to them as a couple. Maybe because technically they never were a couple. Thomas was always a piece on the side. This book to me was Rem’s journey to admitting to the world he cares for a man. There were parts of this book that seemed pretty convenient. Thomas and his family had hearts of gold and saved the day in a really strange sugary sweet way. All the relationships in this story became convoluted. If you like a story with a lot of angst and heartache you might like this one. I guess one could say this is a somewhat realistic tale of love. I’m sure many many men have to be fine with being a secret to be able to keep the one they love in whatever capacity they can have. Which is sad. I’ve like those types of stories before because I was made to understand the struggle. I did not here. This book was obviously not for me.